Krystyl - posted on 12/29/2010 ( 4 moms have responded )
last year on October 11th I had to get a D&C done when a routine checkup with my OB/GYN yielded no heartbeat. 14 months later (December 19th)I took a HPT that yielded positive results.
I was so exited and nervous I almost threw up .
I started taking pre-natal vitamins that day and went to see my family doctor on the 20th
he did a urine sample to confirm and sent a referral to my OB/GYN (I am high risk because I am diabetic and my family doc has very little knowledge of diabetic pregnancies) we figured out I was about 5 weeks and 6 days. My referral was accepted and I found out my appointment will not be until jan 25th ... I will be almost 3 months pregnant.
I started out pretty optimistic, but now I am having very high doubts about this pregnancy,
I fear it will be a re-peat of last time which was incredibly traumatic and painful for both me and my husband. Because my M/C was so subtle last time (I didn't have any clue that I had m/c'd until my 2nd ultrasound at 11 weeks)
I had no cramping, no spotting no nothing.
I won't...CAN'T spend the next whole month not knowing. it's killing me. it's gotten to the point where, though having a child and being a mother is my highest ambition in life, I don't even want to think about this pregnancy. every time I think of a potential name or cute baby bedding set I chastise myself for getting my hopes up.
anyone else going through this? any suggestions?