Pregnant during the loss of my son

Stephanie - posted on 04/10/2012 ( 6 moms have responded )

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My son Brayden was a happy healthy 6 year old first grader until Jan 11th at 10pm when he threw up a few times and continued the next morning. I called the doctor on Friday morning and got him in he was lethargic, pale, and cold to the touch but still responsive. The doctor immediately called an ambulance. We had no clue what was wrong with him and I thought he had a stomach bug and dehydration. When we got to the ER they said his oxygen stats were low and his heartbeat was wrong so they did an EKG and it revealed left ventricle blockage. This was the first time I heard viral myocarditis. He was to be care flighted to Cardinal Glennon Children's Hospital but suffered heart attack in which his brain lacked oxygen. We spent another 5 hours waiting on the team from Cardinal Glennon to bring pediatric heart bypass machine and transport him by ambulance. His body on full life support made it but an EEG revealed no brain activity. I was 5 months pregnant during all this. After 2 more days there was organ failure and brain death so my son was removed from life support and went to heaven on 1/15/2012. I am now 8 months pregnant with his sister Baylee and it is so hard! Brayden was the best little boy a mom could ask for! I am in so much

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Deidra - posted on 05/03/2012

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your son and daughter are so close in the months that they are to be born.

Deidra - posted on 05/03/2012

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i am so sorry for your lost Stephanie,i kind of know what you are going through. I lost my 6 month old daughter when i was pregnant. I lost her to a blood clot to my placenta. She went onto heaven at 25 weeks and im still struggling. i am scared of having any more kids. she was my only daughter and i was doing everything right and i went to my 6th month check up and there was no heart beat. i had to put her to rest febuary 3rd,2012. I have counseling but no mother should have to experice losing a child. I feel your pain just try and do your best for Baylee Mrs. Myers. She is coming into this world for a reason and your son would want you to have his little sister. He is always in your heart and he is looking down on his mother. He is in a better place. Stay strong for Baylee. You will get through,,its going to be hard though because your always thinking about the best lil boy a mother could have. Stay strong Mrs. Myers,,Baylee needs you.

Sandra - posted on 04/15/2012

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I'm so sorry for your lost. I recently lost my niece who was 6 yrs. old and there is not a day that we don't think of her. I know he is your little angel and watching over you and soon to be little sister. May God give you the strength to overcome this and live the best life that you can with your family. you and your family will be in our prayers.

Kathy - posted on 04/12/2012

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Stephanie - so sad for your loss. I have some folks, I've met through my church that suffered a similar loss -- their child contracted an amoeba, while on a family vacation that took his young life. Like you, they have the hope of seeing him in Heaven again, but as humans, this kind of loss can be so hard to deal with on a day to day basis. Please consider joining a support group that can help you through this difficult time. I would highly recommend GriefShare. They ae all over the US. You will be a wonderful Mother to Baylee, because of little Brayden! God bless you.

Debbi - posted on 04/10/2012

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I am sooo sorry to hear about your loss of Brayden. :( That's so tragic. Hugs and prayers to you! :( Brayden will always be a part of you and your life.

Stephanie - posted on 04/10/2012

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Pain and wonder how I'll go on sometimes. I know Baylee was a gift from God to keep me going! I love being a mommy and Brayden will always be my child until we are reunited in eternity. I plan to tell Baylee all about her amazing brother!!



Brayden Michael Rodgers 05/03/2005-01/15/2012

Baylee will be born byrepeat c-section on 05/23/2012