Felicia Neikolle - posted on 07/25/2009 ( 3 moms have responded )
So I just found out that my ex's wife just gave birth yesterday to a beautiful baby boy ... and I'm SO angry. My husband and I have been trying for several months now for only disappointment and heartbreak endlessly with three miscarriages. My ex doesn't even have anything to with the two I have by him and until he found out this child was a boy they were in the middle of a divorce and he had nothing to do with their two girls. It's just so unfair ... why does he get to have another one and I am here suffering and wishing I could be ... and to make it worse ... I'm late again. I've gotten to the point that I don't even get excited anymore ... I get scared. I don't know what I'm supposed to do ... I don't want to be happy for them b/c I don't feel like they deserve another child (they both abused mine) and yet here I am possibly going to have one ... and I'm too scare to even try and find out. I literally wanna bury my head in the sand until a baby bump happens and I'm over five months (I've lost children up to being four and a half months) ... I can't cope with this ... the last miscarriage was 8 wks ago ... and I haven't had a period since ...
Thanks for letting me vent ... sorry!