Sharon - posted on 08/29/2012 ( no moms have responded yet )
I am still so sad that my son Isaiah is not here with us, first let me give you a short background, I have been married for 17 years have 4 beautiful daughters that range in age from 20 to 8. My last pregancy was not expected or planned but we never planned for any of the kids, anyway when we found out that we were having a little boy all of us were shocked and happy that daddy was getting his boy, unfortunately at 32 weeks during a routine appt there was no heartbeat, at that time was youngest 4 and with me when I was told, I had to hold it together b/c I didn't want to scare her, so we went directly to the hospital where I was met by my husband and the girls, hello and goodbye to their baby brother that they were so excited about. I was numb inside, it was like a dream, this couldn't be happening, everything was going fine. Now its been almost 3 years and I still have a hard time enjoying family moments. its like a piece of me left on that day, I tear up when I see baby boys that are 3, the ache inside is so cruel sometimes, I wonder if I will ever feel normal again.