Erica - posted on 01/25/2009 ( 30 moms have responded )
I went to the doctor to confirm a miscarriage at 8 weeks and found out I had been pregnant with twins. We instantly fell in love with our little Jaren who was still thriving. At 16 weeks, my water broke and the doctor told us we could expect to deliver any day. But we never did. Jaren kept living and growing strong. He was born at 27 weeks and did okay in his first 24 hours. The next 12, he did awesome. Then they temporarily removed him from his drips to take a blood sample and he never recovered. We got our phone call that he was dying at midnight and removed him from life support 2 hours later. His oxygen levels were at 20%. Though I know it was inevitable and we chose to hold him as he died, I still deal with the guilt that we made that choice and was it the right choice. He lived a total of 3 days.
Anyone else have to make this decision?