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The healing powers of a new baby :)

Wendy - posted on 06/19/2011 ( 6 moms have responded )

Four months ago I gave birth to my beautiful baby girl. It was only 13 months to virtually the day that I lost my one year old son, and gave birth to my daughter. The pain and despair of losing a baby is the most horrific and overwhelming experience any parent could possibly go through, and when I found out I was pregnant there of course were mixed emotions. There were days of happiness that a new baby will be coming into the home again for my husband, and our children and I, and there were moments of pain and heartache at the loss of our son, a little man we would never see grow up, go to school, make friends and get married and start his own family. But throughout it all, and upon the wonderful birth of our special little girl, we as a family are starting to heal, and our new daughter is definitely helping us through the pain.

Of course we will never forget our son, he is our son and always will be, but as a family we needed to love and cuddle and care for another little person, and to help get us through our darkest hours, and our daughter has done that for us, she has given our family hope, and that is exactly what we called her... Hope.

So for anyone who is contemplating having another baby after losing their child, if you and your husband are emotionally and physically ready to do so, then please try for another baby. Children are blessings and a gift from God, only good things and happiness will follow. If you aren't quite ready, then wait until you are, and if you couldn't go through it again, then that's alright too. I'm here to tell all those mums out there that it is perfectly fine to have another baby after losing a child, and who cares what anyone else thinks about your decision. It is yours and your partners decision, and what you want is what is right. I'm here to say that my decision for having another baby is the best thing I ever did, and I am the happiest woman alive every time I look at my beautiful daughters face and see her gorgeous smile. She reminds me a little of my son, and that is only a good thing, because as long as she is here with me, so is my son :)

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Ivy Florence - posted on 06/27/2011

I lost my son too..he was 1 year and 10 months when he died.He was the youngest in the twin. they both have congenital heart disease. But the youngest was the severe case.his lips and nail beds are blue and he had an asthma.he undergone a total correction of his heart hoping that his life will be longer..but his heart got bigger and had a severe asthma attack..our hearts were broken when he died, all our hopes faded. I felt like half of my life died too,thanks my son,the eldest twin, because of him I still want to fight and move on. Now I'm still praying and hoping that the hole in his heart will close. We're trying to have another baby praying and hoping the hearts that were broken will be mended by this little angel..hoping and praying too that his healthy and looks like the youngest twin.. I'm also praying that its his healthy reincarnation...a wishful thinking..

Gina - posted on 06/23/2011

Hi Wendy, Congratulations on the birth of your daughter and Im so sorry for the loss of your little boy. I found your post inspiring and a relief to read. We lost our little daughter Molly at aged 10 months to Leukaemia on July 31st last year. I found out afew days ago that Im pregnant again and have such mixed up emotions. Im very happy to be pregnant, it was planned, but I suppose I havent got the extremes of emotion I have had with previous pregnancies. We have 2 little boys aged 4 and 5 who have kept me alive really since Mollys death. She was such a beautiful angel and I will never be able to console myself about her loss. We decided to try again because although I know we can never ever get over losing our angel girl, we wanted to try to bring some happiness and hope back into our lives. Its funny that you called your daughter Hope, ever since we started trying to conceive this time Ive thought what a perfect name that would be if we did. Im very very scared this time. Scared of losing this one too but I know also that having lost our Molly we need to try to 'live' again, for us and our gorgeous boys. Thankyou so much for your post, I have joined this site purely based on your post. Not many people can make me cry anymore but you did. Im so happy for you and thankyou for your inspiration.

Lindsey - posted on 06/21/2011

Your story is very inspiring and made me cry. I lost my son Mason 2 months ago he was still born at 37 weeks it was devastating. I miss him very much I always wanted to have 2 children I was blessed with my now 5 yr old daughter. At the time I couldnt even think about having another baby but now I am considering the thought and am having mixed feelings as you said you did. I know Im not replacing him but I feel a baby would bring back the happiness I am missing and make me a better person for myself and my family, But Im scared of something happening, I just couldnt go through so much pain again. Thank you for your story ♥

Cherokee - posted on 06/21/2011

i gave birth to my still born son when I was 6 months pregent. & I didnt even know I was pregent. that was in '05, 4 months ago I had a beautitul baby boy, I was 35 weeks along, & I was having serious problems, they had to rush me into emergency c-section....he was born weighing 3.4 lbs. & doing wonderful, but I find myself not wanting to put hin down cause I am afraid I will never get to hold him again. I catch myself checkin him everytime he sleeps to make sure he is breathing, I am sure this is normal but my god, I NEED SLEEP....lol, I get real frustrated when I need to do something & I cant cause my 4 month old wants to be held & no one to help me out with this. What can I do?? I dont get mad at my son, jus myself...

Tiffini - posted on 06/20/2011

I have been blessed with 3 rainbow babies since the lose of my 2nd daughter. My 3rd & 4th arrived just 14 months after my angels birth. They brought me back to life. I cherish all 5 of my children & each of them have impacted me in their own way.