Karen - posted on 03/03/2009 ( 24 moms have responded )
Hi everyone. I lost my daughter Averi on December 22, 2008. I had been on bedrest for two months and her heart stopped at 35 weeks. All of the tests came back saying she was a normal healthy baby girl, no explanation can be found as to why this happend to me. I am 31 and Averi was my first child. Because of my age, and the fact that I want multiple children, I don't want to wait long to try again. My doctor has told me that I can try again now. But as excited as I am about being pregnant again and the longing I have to be a mom, I have such mixed emotions about it all. I was able to spend five hours holding Averi after I delivered her, which was SO bitter sweet and a good closure for me, but as many of you know, it is still so hard to bare at times. Any advice for me as I start this journey up all over again?