Libby - posted on 01/25/2009 ( 10 moms have responded )
I lost my daughter at 20 weeks almost 8 weeks ago. I am wanting to be pregnant again so badly. However, I am having tests done so I can make an educated decision rather than an emotional one. I had an easy 1st pregnancy, complicated 2nd one with a 10 week early preemie, then lost our daughter last month. With the complications I had with her I knew I could handle another preemie if it came down to that. But I wasn't prepared for losing her all together. She was going to complete our family. Now I find myself wanting another one very soon. We wanted to be done having kids by age 30...that's only 8 months away for me. I know that's still young, but when we were planning our family that's what we said was 30. Now I know that's not set in stone, and my husband has agreed to trying again. Which I was surprised about because I thought he might not want to try again because he was on the fence about having a 3rd one because of our complicated 2nd pregnancy. But he has agreed to try again and we are waiting for some tests to come back. However, we have not used any protection these last several weeks but I'm leaving this all in God's hands at this point. I have even thought that maybe we shouldn't just have one more but maybe two more. I guess I just never thought that the dynamics of our family would change this much after losing her. Am I crazy for wanting to be pregnant again already? Am I still too emotional to make a rational decision? I just don't feel like I need to wait any certain undetermined length of time to declare I'm healed from losing my daughter. Because I know I will never be completely healed, I will always miss her. Any thoughts on trying again?