Michelle - posted on 12/10/2009 ( 6 moms have responded )
I was a week before my due date when I went to "the appointment." we didnt get a heart beat. I was devastated immediately. the doctors said a prayer over me and sent me directly to the hospital. there they confirmed the worst, i wanted so bad for them to be wrong. they admitted me and that night they induced my labor. I had her at 5:09AM dec, 19, she was 5ibs 6oz her name was raylynnd marie. she was perfect. for months i couldnt wait to have her. one, because i wanted to hold her against my chest as she slept and just feel her and love her. two, i was tired of being pregnant. i had a bad pregnancy, i was sick almost the entire time and had high blood pressure at the end. I knew things werent right, thought i had a stroke dec, 2 and they just wrote me off. apparently goodsam was packed with the high risk patients that night. i went in because i lost some use of my left hand and leg i was affraid i had a stroke. When i got there they hooked me up to monitors where they saw baby wasnt responding to well so they put me on fluids with sugar. rthey did tests that showed i did in fact lose use of my left limbs. they did and ultra spund said my placenta was calcified, saw a heartbeat, diagnosed me with carpitunnel and sent me home. later that week i had my appointment, at this time i still hadnt had an appointment every week and i was 34 weeks. there i told them again the baby wasnt moving. my blood pressure was really high. they sent me home a bottle to pee in and scheduled me back in two weeks. About 1 week later i couldnt sleep, kept feeling like i was smothering and couldnt feel baby move. I was told it was because i was close to my due date. dec 18 was the two weeks and thats when we couldnt find the heartbeat. If they would have just listened to me this situation probably could have been avoided. I half believe its because of the insurance i carried because it was through the state. maybe i would have been more important in their eyes if i paid privately for my insurance. I dont know. You get a lot of mixed feelings and thoughts when something like this happens.
Im now pregnant again, and im nervous. I have different doctors this time around and i hope theywill take me more serious. Im only 12 weeks and have a very long way to go. this is hard and very scary. Its a little to soon to be pregnant again