Annette - posted on 08/19/2011 ( 2 moms have responded )
Hi there. It is my first time posting here or anywhere for a long time. I have been having a very hard time dealing with things. We are a military family (my husband will soon retire) and we just moved from CA to TX. My husband went back to Cali to finish up till Dec. I have two kids- age 7 (girl) and 11 (boy). I was taking bipolar and anxiety meds for quite a whileduring my teenage years and adult years. Last Dec. I weaned myself off (I told my doc)because of the horrible side effects I was having. I was seeing double, very dizzy (more than usual) and couldn't even drive. I have in the past usually got dizzy in response to anxiety/panic, but these other symptoms worried me, so I experimented. I wouldn't take them one day and I felt better. They also made me extremely tired as soon as I took them. So I put two and two together. I had the dizziness prob since teenage years and when I stopped meds, havne't had it ever since! I was extremely happy and motivated, my life was back. I could even maybe think about going back to work. I haven't worked in 12 yrs. due to this. Well, with the whole moving process, new state, kids going to new schools...and kids issues, husband not here too...the stress is getting to me. The kids issues are: my son has ADHD, and daughter whom has had delays, has speech delays, panic, and possible OCD. I do too. Anyways, between me and my husband, I have been the one maintaining the family and doing everything. I am used to that. My point is that my depression is coming back hard, I am always fighting my mental issues...being negative about myself. I have no one to cry to or hear me out. I tell my husband and i feel worse.My son has issues that are driving me up the wall. I am having major anxiety issues about starting them in new schools. Everything is new to me and so different here. I feel like an alien. I just need to vent. I am getting so depressed.