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I'm sick inside ....

Sandra - posted on 02/19/2010 ( 2 moms have responded )

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I am bipolar/rapid cycler ... recently it has become more and more evident to me that my son might have inherited this lovely trait.
Lately he is having fits of anger where he digs at his face and pulls his hair, thwacks his head against the wall while screaming as if being tortured things like "I wanna die, I am going to rip my skin off!, I am SUFFERING HERE!"
It is so hard for me to try to talk him down b/c in the process he throws things at me and hits me while screaming louder than I can talk - result, sends me into an anxious/manic episode of my own.
Any suggestions??????

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Brooke - posted on 03/10/2010

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Hi Sandra...How are ya hunny?? Not so great huh? Yeah I hear that, In Nov. my ex husband calledm e and said come get your daughter...He has had custody for 6 yrs (in part to my BP..it was that outta control) So I said OKAY. JC, cuts herself, minipulates people, habitual liar, changes moods and personality quicker than I can think..and so on...I got her into the Psych. as soon as she got here, and its been a slooowwww process...but here is the skinny, She is a rpid cycler/BP as well..OMG... it takes a lot off the shoulders to KNOW there is a definition behind this all... When she menstruates, its SOOOOOO bad!!!! I am this close to calling the police, or Mobile Crisis on her, I get to scared sometimes!!! Not just for me, but for her as well. I have done ((honest to gaw)) body checks on her, to make sure she hasnt cut... go through her room and belongings on a reg. basis... check on her several times a night, because she gets soooo out of control... the comments she makes, the threats.. WOW... its a terrifying place to be.

She sees a therapist once a week, and finally is going to see the Psych. for medications this week. She wantedJC to be in therapy for a while first, to see where it would take us..but JC is just getting out of control. ughhhh So yeah... its scarey having a boy in this situation..but try having a female...who Rapid Cycles while PMsing!!! SCAREYYYY!!!! I am here for ya Sandra. We have talked before hunny. So yeah if ya need me holler!!!

Brooke

Lei - posted on 02/24/2010

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Sandra, I can relate more than you ever know. I have had Bipolar Disorder, PTSD, Anxiety Disorder and Borderline OCD since childhood. Well, last year in January my son started showing all the classic signs. He was out of control and he even attempted suicide twice. He spent all together about 8 weeks in a mental facility. He is also violent to me. I have been fighting cancer and on once occasion I went to sit on his bed to talk to him and he kicked me off his bed and laughed about it. That moment I called the police and had him taken right back to the hospital. I found an excellent website that you might find helpful: http://www.dbsalliance.org . I know it's hard but you HAVE to stand your ground. Anytime you need to vent or are getting that guilty mom feeling we get get in touch with me and we will deal with it together. I promise once they finally get his meds regulated(very long process) you will start to see many changes.



Shauna

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