Constance - posted on 05/07/2011 ( 15 moms have responded )
I have Bipolar and I wen off meds over three years ago. The problem I have is either the side effects are so severe that I absolutly can't function or I am allergic to the meds. I have done really well. I have been able to keep my cycling under control, not perfect but managable.
I have so much going on right now. I am balancing 4 kids, two of which are disabaled and one that I homeschool. My husband is working in a different state. I am working from home full time and going to school full time.
In general I can handle everything even with my husband not being here but he is the one that keeps adding more and more stress on me. He does have history of quitting his jobs if he thinks it is going to "fix" the problem. My youngest is having more and more problems I found out this week that she has to have another surgery which is going to make it at least 5 maybe more really don't know. I can deal with this it's hard but I can deal. What is mking me want to blow is my husband.When I start to vent he automatically thinks I want a divorce. Our marriage hasn't been thebest in severel years but we do love each other and we do want to make it work. When he acts like this it makes me want to say fuck you if you think I want the divorce hen I will file the paper work tomorrow.
How can I get him to realize that my stress isn't always about him? I am trying to balance everything without cycling into a manic eposode. I really can't afford it I have to be level to take care of me and the kids.