Amanda - posted on 12/07/2009 ( 6 moms have responded )
My beautiful baby girl was born last week... the 3rd. This is obviously my first week home and it just keeps getting harder and even though its an open adoption and I have become very close with the adoptive parents, I am now 2nd guessing my decision. I miss her so much and I know that right now just financially affording to take care of her would be very difficult and I dont want to hurt the adoptive parents. But I just dont know if I can do this or not. I dont have anyone that I can talk to and I just dont know how to cope with all this. Her father is a marine stationed at camp lejuene and couldnt help me raise her although he was willing to pay child support, but he was very supportive of the adoption but he just isnt there for me emotionally. So how did you all get through this very difficult first few weeks and what did you do to help ease the hurt, pain and second guessing???