Jennifer - posted on 02/24/2010 ( 5 moms have responded )
I am trying to work through the traumatic childbirth of my son. Is anyone else doing the same or has done it? I find myself feeling guilty about how he must have experienced the birth and how scary it i think it was for him. I know I did all I could for us to have the birth I wanted but thats not enough to quell my sadness at the loss of the birth I felt was best for both of us, physically and emotionally.
Also, I find myself thinking "If I had another baby I could have the birth I wanted or at least a better one." I know it's illogical because that birth will be what it'll be and I have no control over it.
I don't want to project my sadness and guilt onto my son. How do I work through this? How do I get to a place where I accept his birth as it was and not all the things it wasn't?!
Any advice, support, or suggestions are welcome. Thanks for reading this.