Shirley - posted on 01/12/2011 ( 1 mom has responded )
On this day 28 years ago I gave birth to a beautiful baby girl. Her face was the work of the greatest artist in the world. Perfect eyelashes, perfectly lined eyebrows, rosy pink lips, and eyes of pure pools of water that sparkled in the sunlight. Outwardly she was perfect to me, but inwardly laid a disease unknowing to us that would eventually take her life. God knew exactly what he was doing when He created my precious angel Sarah. We went through so much with her, yet she smiled always. Yes, she would have some tears when those times of hospital stays, surgeries, blood work, medicines, and mommy having to leave her at the hospital and go home to see my other beautiful children would come along the way, but the tears wouldn’t last long. Sarah may have been behind for her age, but she sure could teach us some very important lessons. Smile though your heart is aching, smile when ever life is quaking, smile through the harshness of life. Smile though I’m suffering, smile when your time is shortening, smile because God has his hands on it all. God used our beautiful precious daughter to teach her mommy and daddy, her brothers and sister, her Grandparents, Aunts, Uncles, Cousins, extended family and friends to be content and patient in whatever state we are in. You see God does not give us special children in our lives for us to teach and train them, but for these beautiful children to train and teach us. Even though we feel so overwhelmed with emotion, God does not give us more than we can handle, He gives us the means to handle it. Yes, my heart aches and my tears still flow because there will always be an emptiness in my heart for my special, sweet precious Sarah. But I have learned so much by having her in my life, and I have learned so much even after Jesus took her home, and I am still learning. You know what I have learned? I have learned that no matter what comes my way in life I can make it through because I have a God that loves me so very much that can and will see me through anything that comes my way. Yes, we have to suffer loss, pain, tragedies, and turmoil in life, but how do we come out of these trials? Do we want to be victorious or do we want to fail? I will continue to be there for parents of special needs children and parents that have lost children in any way that I can. I want Sarah’s life to be remembered as the loving child she was, and the love and lessons that occurred because of the ways that God worked through her. I am so thankful that God chose Rick and I to parent such a loving and precious child. I am thankful for the 12 years He allowed us with her. I am thankful for our families and church families, and friends that stood beside us and prayed for us. I am thankful that I am here to share my heart with you all. My prayer is that you do not give up when you have suffered in life, but instead to give in to a God that will see you through all of life’s struggles with His strength, love, mercy and compassion, and rejoice with you in your victories. God bless you all, and spoken from the heart.
Rom 15:1 We then who are strong ought to bear with the scruples of the weak, and not to please ourselves.
Rom 15:2 Let each of us please his neighbor for his good, leading to edification.
Rom 15:3 For even Christ did not please Himself; but as it is written, "The reproaches of those who reproached You fell on Me."
Rom 15:4 For whatever things were written before were written for our learning, that we through the patience and comfort of the Scriptures might have hope.
Rom 15:5 Now may the God of patience and comfort grant you to be like-minded toward one another, according to Christ Jesus,
Rom 15:6 that you may with one mind and one mouth glorify the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ.
2Cr 1:3 Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort,
2Cr 1:4 who comforts us in all our tribulation, that we may be able to comfort those who are in any trouble, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God.
Through all her pain and suffering, it lasted for awhile
She never understood the agony, just laid there with a smile
The deep sadness in my heart for my precious little child
Could only be erased when I picture her sweet smile
Heaven gained an angel, but I lost a sweetheart
Heaven gained an angel, but I lost my child
The Lord Jesus came and took her home, my pain goes on for miles
Forever sketched in my memory will always be, Sarah’s smile
Heaven gained an angel, but I lost my sweetheart
Heaven gained an angel. But I lost my child
God tell her that I love her, sometimes I’m in denial
God tell her that I miss her, forever Sarah’s Smile
Sarah Nichole Andricks – 1-12-83 – 1-25-95
Poem/Song written by Shirley Andricks, Sarah’s mom in April of 1995