Katelyn - posted on 02/19/2012 ( 4 moms have responded )
I am not married, but engaged. We have a 10 month old daughter together and have been together for 4 years. He has been emotionally and verbally abusive towards me for a large portion of our relationship, and I have had enough. Everything is always my fault, I have problems, I need to fix myself. The day I decided I was ready to walk away, we had gotten into a fight in the parking lot of the hospital where I was to be having tests. I have been having a lot of medical problems lately with precancerous cells on my cervix, and benign tumors on one of my ovaries. He started yelling so loud and punching the steering wheel where I just totally freaked out and ran out of the car. He then drove off. He just left me there, I had to call my mother who was watching our daughter to pack her up and drive across town to pick me up. He then proceeded to not speak to me until the next morning and began blaming me for the whole incident and saying I was "bad". That just did me in. I left him right then and there. He does all these horrible things to me but I still can not get over him. The other side of his terrible ways were loving and sweet, and I can't help but to miss those times. I keep asking myself if I should have tried more, if I should have made him gone to counceling or something, but he never even thought he had a problem. Why can I not get over my positive feelings for him? Something is wrong with me.