Kathy - posted on 05/21/2009 ( 29 moms have responded )
Hello moms out there. I am 42 yr old stay at home mom with a beautiful 2 1/2 yr baby girl who is my life.
But I feel like I am losing it sometimes with myself. I think I am begining that perimenapausal crap and I cant take it anymore. I am an emotional wreck - one minute I am so angry and the next sobbing like a baby. My insides feel like I am going to explode at times - like I want to scream at the top of my lungs! I have ZERO patience and get irritated at everyone and everything - ESPECIALLY myself. Oh I am my own worse enemy. Oh but the guilt that I carry when I feel impatient with my little girl - its terrible.
I REALLY do not want to take any drugs and counseling would be nice just to let it all out - but hubby works (randomly) and I dont have a babysitter to "schedule" any me time for stuff like that. Any holistic cures out there? SOMETHING that can put me at ease? I need more than a pep talk right now. I really dont like me anymore and want to find the person I use to be. I miss her. She was fun and carefree. More confident and relaxed. I need help please. Thank you!