Nikki - posted on 05/06/2010 ( 2 moms have responded )
I truly support my future husband and father of our son.. but honestly these hours are brutal. When hes gone I do everything, when hes home he tries to stay up so that he can see us. I know he needs to sleep and we do take our nap times together.. when our son naps, we get to snuggle for a few hours and that helps but.. were getting married in July this year and I feel so... disconnected. When hes home its wonderful everythings great. But when hes gone it sucks honestly. My best friend is putting his life on the line for crappy pay and no benefits. It just doesnt make sense to me. How can the ghetto cities not pay these guys. They work so hard, and such long hours. Half the time these men have 2nd jobs, ( which mine does) and our calender is just filled with shifts. I just want my fiance to feel good about him self. He feels like hes working his tail end off and not getting anywhere in life. I re-assure him everything is perfect because in reality, we are all healthy and we have each other and were taken care of- but he still stresses. I know im rambiling but- really.. 11:45 at night ive been alone since 4:00 with a toddler. Theres only so many childrens books you can read, cars you can race, meals you can cook, clothes to put away, sweeper to run, taking the dog out.. before theres just nothing left to do. . I usually do take this time for ME. which us moms know we never have, but after being ALONE for soo many days in a row.. your me time is over and your lonely.. I hope and pray that my fiance gets to the place where we both would like him to be. Until then.. we keep up our prayers.