Gina - posted on 04/13/2010 ( 4 moms have responded )
I'm Ginamarie and currently 20 years old. I live in New York with my son in my parents house. I have been going through post partum for almost a year now. I have had an extremely hard time finding people who understand what I have been going through. Talking about it certianly helps though.
At first I thought people would think I was crazy for the way I was feeling. Nobody seemed to understand when I would say 'I love my son and I know hes mine but I feel as though I'm just babysitting and someone else is going to come pick him up one day' or that when my baby cries I feel as though I have tunnel vision and the only thing I can concentrate on is the crying. I can't 'tune it out' or 'just ignore it' I get stuck in the cry and cannot physically do anything aside from saying my sons name figuring if he hears it he'll stop crying.
It took me a long time to realize that what I have been going through many other women go through as well *everyone to their own degree* and that I am not the only one out there to have to go through this.
Unfortunately sometimes talking to family just makes them look at you worse because they do not understand since they themselves have not been through it. But talking to others who have been does indeed help at least a little bit. And when you just want to be able to be a good parent to your child any little bit that can help you'll take.
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