Jamie - posted on 09/14/2010 ( 4 moms have responded )
I just thought I would write to get some of this off my chest. I have a 11 year old daughter and a 10 year old step-son and now me and my husband of 7 years are having a baby. I am so worried about how this will change everything. I had given up many years ago the idea of having his child and was content and happy with my situation. Then I found out I was pregnant. What if I don't feel the same about this child as I did about my first. I don't want you to think I am a bad person but I was not to pleased to find out I was pregnant. I don't want my life to change and we barely have the room in my house for us much less another baby. My step-son I am afraid is going to take it very hard once the baby gets here as he will be jealous that the baby gets more time with Daddy. My daughter is extremely excited and can not wait. I have 5 weeks until delivery date and I am terrified. I had a hard time delivering my first child and have had complications with my female parts since. I have even had 3 miscarriages. I am worried that since I am not as excited about this one that I will feel different with this one and also that I won't connect as much. I also on top of all of this am bi-polar and was on medication for the first two and half months because I was not aware I was pregnant. I am worried this might affect the baby. Any comments are appreciated. I think I just need some words of wisdom and support from others that may have went through some of this already.