NIcole - posted on 08/05/2009 ( 7 moms have responded )
It is so awesome to know that there are other Mom's out there with healthy children. I had seizures as a child and then they stopped when I was about 13 then they returned at 26. That was hard. I had Petite Mal while I was pregnant and 1 grand mal. After I had my son my brain went hay wire and I was having petite mal seizures every couple of minutes. It was horrible I wanted to die. But God got me through just like he protected my son while I was pregnant. Then they changed my meds and for a whole year I was controlled. Then they decided to lower it and now I have started with petite mal again.
I don't drive I haven't driven for years to be safe. I can't be left alone. Sometimes I feel like I am less of a Mom like my child got the raw end of the stick does anyone else feel this way? I just keep waiting for the day for God to heal me because I already take Zonogran, Tegretol, Carbotraol, and Phenobarbitol. So needless to say I will not take anything else. But if anyone can answer me do any of you feel the same way? I feel like a horrible Mother and wife because I am tired from the meds, I can't drive, I have weight issues from the meds, I just feel like I could do so much more if I wasn't always on meds. I would never stop my meds on my own but I just feel like a bad Mom sometimes. Because my child got the defective Mom. Does anyone else know what I mean?