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Is anyone else out there is the same boat? I have a four year old and after two years of court had to let him live with his father and his new gf because I had not money to fight anymore, and I have a 12week old baby with a man who has left me and is off playing happy families with a new gf. I am so lonely and know I have bad PND and I am getting help but I really don't know if I want to be a single mum again and go through the heartache of doing it all over again by myself, I don't think I can pick myself up this time it's bad enough to be left with a baby on your own once but twice is just too much especially on top of my son living with his dad who I miss all the time! My baby is perfect and so happy I have considered adoption he deserves better than this! I am so depressed and I know the constant lonely struggle that's to come on all fronts, it's like since I have had kids I hate being single I didn't mind being single before I had my babies but now I can't stand it, I hate leaving playdates knowing that will be the last adult conversation for the day and sitting at home all night alone! I want his dad to love us I never saw this coming..like I have this baby and have no one to share him with I am so lonely as a parent and I have already done this once I don't think I can do this again, I have family and friends but it's not the same my heart aches for me and my baby to have his dad around I want to share his milestones with him and have him there to laugh with when he does something funny and I can't come to terms with that not happening, I really don't feel like I can get up this time I am so unhappy and broken.