Kristy - posted on 05/12/2010 ( 12 moms have responded )
My little girl was ADORED by her daddy. He was the stay at home daddy while I worked and he LOVED it. He spoiled her rotten. Then he got another job and we were sending her to stay with my granny while we both worked. On his way to his 3rd day at work he had a wreck on his motorcycle. He died. 2 days before my little girl turned 2 months old, her daddy went to live with Jesus. Everyone says it will get easier. Every day has only gotten harder. I may not have been married to him, but we BOTH knew we'd spend the rest of our lives together. Now I'm spending my life alone and his life is over. I met him April 14, 2009. He died April 14, 2010. He would have been 23 on April 22, 2010. We would have been together a year on April 29, 2010. Idk what to do with my life now.
I always told him how lucky I was to have such an amazing man that was still around. I got pregnant at 19. I met him in April. Moved in with him in may. Got pregnant in June. but he was still there and he proved to me every day how much he loved me. He stopped drinking for me. He changed his whole life style for ME. He loved me with all of his heart. But I told him all the time how lucky I was to have someone like him. That I didn't have to raise our little girl alone. That there was no way I could do it without his help. Now look at me. I'm a single mom at the worst circumstances.
But what I'm scared of... What do I tell her when she's 5 years old and comes home from school asking me where HER daddy is. And why she doesn't have one. Granted it'll be easier explaining to her that Jesus wanted him to live with Him rather than telling her that he didn't want anything to do with her... but idk how to even prepare for those days.
I'm so scared. I'm scared of life without my soldier. I'm scared of not raising her the way WE wanted her raised.
My life is upside down. And in two days it will have been upside down for a month...
Is there ANYONE else out there that has a baby that will never get to know their daddy because Jesus decided it was time for daddy to come Home?