Shalonda - posted on 06/13/2010 ( 2 moms have responded )
I met this guy when i was 16 years old and i haven't felt the way i felt about him for anyone else. I just can't seem to connect with anyone else the way i connected with him. I was young, insecure, and extremely shy around him. I thought i wasn't pretty enough to be his girlfriend or to be seen with him. It's been ten years since i have seen or spoken to this guy that i fell in love with but not one day has went by in the last few years that i haven't thought about him and wondered what our life would have been like if we were still together. I even got married to a guy that reminded me of him and eventhough i know it wasn't him i felt connected with him in some kind of way. I just want to get over it and let it go. You see we were both young when we met and i was very insecure in the relationship which caused a lot of problems but i really did love him and i tried to be the best girlfriend that i knew how to be but when i kept putting myself down and behaving as though i wasn't good enough he eventually got tired of it and we broke up. I just want to know how the story really would have ended if i would have had more self esteem and stood up for myself better than what i did. I wonder if he even remembers me or if he ever loved me? Well, i guess i will never know.