Amie - posted on 07/09/2012 ( 20 moms have responded )
My babys dad left me out of no where after I decided to quit my stylist job to raise my son. So then I lost my place and job and had to move back with my parents. I finally found a boyfriend who loves my son and cares for him and so does everyone else. Its nice and i feel lucky to have found such a guy that loves my son as his own but I feel left out and that he gives all his attention and love and care to my son. Its like I'm kicked the the curb by everyone and everything. All I do is stay home and take care of the house and my son. I dont have friends to hang with or talk to about all this so I am rather lonely. My boyfriend works a lot and late at night so he sleeps all day. When he is off we cant do much and he dont talk to me when I really need someone to talk to. There are people younger or the same age as me moving out with the help of someone and I dont understand why that can't be me. I'm gonna have to somehow get a good job and support my son and move out... My life is lonely and boring and feels like theres no meaning to my life but helping my son grow up as best as i can. I need help, I suffer from stress and loneliness and being jobless, feeling worthless.
Everyday I'm at home, wish I could go out and be happy but I'm not. My babys dad got the apartment I lost and lives with his girlfriend now which didnt make me happy at all. He doesn't deserve to be happy, he never hardly sees his son, he argues about taking him longer than 5 hours and requests only specific days. Everyone else life is just running the way they want it but mine. When will it end, when will I ever be happy with my life.