I just need someone to listen and advice

Cheyenne - posted on 03/23/2012 ( 1 mom has responded )

Ok. So to start out I have a daughter who is 5. I had her when I was 15. Her father is not in the picture an really never has been. Life went on for me and I dated and broke up but haven't we all? Well. I fell in love with a guy and things were great. We got engaged moved in together and it was fantastic. Last November we fought and he left for two days. He came home we worked through it. December 6 he left again. Barely talked to me and ignored me. Called the wedding off that we had planned for June 2, 2012 and everything. Christmas morning he called us and said merry Christmas blah blah. He and I ended up texting all day and he cried and told me how sorry he was and he missed us so much and wanted to come home. So I left him back. A few weeks after he came home I found out I was pregnant and when I went to the dr we figured out I got pregnant in the beginning of December. So it was before he had left. We were both excited but nervous at the same time. As days went on things were up and down for us. One day he was axing the next he just sort of ignored me. And we grew apart. Over this past weekend we went out of town to visit his family. I had met some of them before but not all since they live so far away. So I felt kind of awkward and I also had the worst cold ever. I did not feel good at all. Saturday night we ended up in a huge fight. I almost had my mother drive three hours to gets because it was so bad. Sunday when we got home he packed a bag and claimed he was just going to his mothers for the night and he would be home Monday after work to talk to me. It's Friday and he still isn't home. He also missed my dr appointment on Wednesday which I reminded him about. I am so furious with him. He barely talks to me at all an I've given up even trying to talk to him. I hate him for doing this and leaving when I need him the most. He claims this relationship is over for good. It is just a repeat of what I went through with my daughter. I feel so alone and betrayed it isn't even funny. I didn't plan on any of this to happen to me at the age of 21. But it did. His family keeps telling me o hold in there don't give up on him yet he needs to mature. But how much is enough. I feel so bad for our unborn child and my daughter who loves him so much and wants him to come home and us to get married. A part of me wants to sit and wait for him to grow up and realize what he is leaving but the other part is saying forget it. You'll have to see homing court. I'm so stressed and irritated and I just hate him. I really really hate him. I just needed to vent that to anyone. Any advice or anything to help me keep my head high and to keep myself going will be really appreciated. Thanks for taking the time to read this and read my story.