Sarah - posted on 11/13/2010 ( 11 moms have responded )
I am 25 years old and I live in a city where I have no friends and very and I mean very few family members. I am only here because my mother is close which is great for my two daughters, Kaitlyn (4) and Abigail (2). I have been a single mom even before I had these two girls. I am an independent person and have never really pictured myself getting married, like no one would want me or something. I have been an on and off again student. I just feel like life is so difficult right now. I havent been working while I am going to school and I am desperate for a job now. I have been in a relationship with this guy who is unbelievably selfish. I know he loves me but he only thinks about himself and his future. He doesnt know if he can ever see himself as a family man and I used to have a lot of fun with him but lately he is just on the computer or playing a game on his phone. I know he hasnt been cheating cause he is ALWAYS at the house but he takes no interest in my life or even take an interest in doing things with me and my girls or even with just me.... I am ALWAYS kicking him out and I have never been an angry person but I am starting to get really angry with everything. I mean angry. I have never lost my temper and I am just furious and easily irritated with everything... I am so mad and its mostly at him... He has this awesome job in which he gets money just to spend it on whatever he wants. I pay my bills and utilities. I just dont understand why I am putting myself through this frustration... I wait to see a difference and I know I shouldnt hold my breath... I just dont know why I continue to torture myself????