Kate - posted on 01/14/2011 ( 19 moms have responded )
So my daughter's father lives overseas and can't be here so I'm doing it on my own and have been since before she was born. It's been quite the rollercoaster and although I have a fantastic job, it is VERY demanding. I just always always always feel like I'm overextending myself... I spread myself so thin because her father isn't even here to take her one day a week or help me in any real way. He sends a little bit of money per month but it barely makes a dent. Funny thing is, I make a GREAT salary but still not quite enough it seems. Long story short, the demands of the job, parenting a rowdy toddler and thensome has made me not focus on myself as much. As a result, I got Shingles. Let me tell you, it's misery! It's been so debilitating and has effected the skin on my face making it hard for me to go to work and has now caused me severe nerve pain. This usually only effects elderly people... but can also happen with stress. It's the chicken pox virus that lays dormant in your body from the day you ended it as a kid and rears it's ugly head again as shingles later on in life is you're less than fortunate.
On top of that, I found out that I likely have skin cancer. During the appt for shingles, I showed the doctor a really suspicious thing on my back and sure enough she said "I don't like it, I really don't like it. We have to biopsy this immediately and remove it." So while I doubt it's a high stage of melanoma if it is, it's still so stressful. Every moment I have to go to the doctors costs me $$ and time from work. I'm terrified I will lose my job eventually and am just.... ready to collapse. It seems like it will never end.... I need hope. It's a vicious circle.