Ashley - posted on 11/28/2009 ( 17 moms have responded )
Its so rewarding to be a mommy.. I have been married twice.. Tryin to find the happiness that we deserve has been difficult, to say the least... It gets so old to hear the same promises from every man, only to have my hopes and my daughters, dashed onto the rocks, that i have decided to be alone for a while.. Celibacy has one wonders for me, its been about 5 months now, going strong.......
I have always been an outwardly strong person, with a softer inside than most people would guess.. I want so badly to be truly happy, and for my daughters to have another good role model, other than me... All things considered, we are all very well adjusted.. I just dont know why ifeel so...
Well, so discontent.. I have always been a stay at home mommy. But, now, here i sit. divorced. again. Its so hard to answer my lovely daughters when they ask why mommy doesnt have the money for barbies, christmas, etc.......... And the hardest thing is that i have so few people i can trust in my life, male or female.. No one to ask for advice.. I would LOVE to work from home, so i can feed these kids and keep the bills paid. But im terrified of scams... Lord knows, I get little to no help as it is... >> I have trouble keepin my chin held high on some days.. I know that eventually things will get better, its just been such a long rocky road for me mentally........... Any suggestions, advice, feedback, etc. would be much appreciated, ya*ll