Amber - posted on 02/22/2011 ( 9 moms have responded )
not sure how to explain my sitautation. i feel so stupid, so pathetic and so unlovable. i have one little girl and a baby on the way. i got back 2gether with an ex, not my daughters dad, we were back dating about 2 weeks when he asked me 2 marry him, i said yes... we started trying for another child and my daughter started calling him dad. i know thats all a little quick but i knew i wanted to marry him when i was 16. Anyways about 2 or 3 weeks after that my so called fiance abandoned us. about a week later i found out that i was indeed pregnant. so now i have a daughter who is asking for her daddy all the time and a new baby who will never get to meet its dad... his new girlfriend has been phoning me and threatening me and my daughter. i keep wondering what im going to tell this baby about its dad i really do love him but he cant be in our lives. took my life and my daughters life being threatened to realize this. his mom has told me that she is not grandma material and doesnt wanna be involved with this baby either. im coming to realize how blessed i as with my daughter. my daughter sees her bio dad maybe once every 6 month or so. and she sees his family ever other week or so. she also has his last name. how am i going to explain to her why her name is different then mine and the babies. so anyways now im heartbroken, scared for my life and dealing with a broken hearted little girl who just wants her daddy... someone please tell me that we will forget, both of us. specailly her. i feel like such a failure as a parent for allowing this kinda uproot in my daughters life. not too mention im dealing with all the preg hormones and fears for this new baby or babies... he has twins in his family. my daughter and i will truely be the only family this baby or babies has, my daughter doesnt really have a dad but she does have a family besides me and my family. this baby doesnt have a dad or any other family and that is totally overwhelming to me. my family is supportive in some ways but really not in others. i realize how much support my daughters dads family has been.... they have even told me that this baby is thier grandbaby as well and will never be treated any different then my daughter. but i feel kinda gulty letting them do that when thus baby is npt a blood realitve to them.... im probably wrong to fell like that but hey. i just feel so alone and overwhelmed. is there anyone else out there who is or has been in my sitautation? i wish someone could tell me everything is goign to be ok.... that God will never give me more then i can handle. anyways this will soon be a book so i should let u go.