Sarh - posted on 12/15/2010 ( 8 moms have responded )
I'm not sure what is going on with me! When I was pregnant w/my now 6 month old son I was working a physical job and cooking and cleaning at home. I also have an almost 5yo daughter. When my son was first born I wanted to clean and cook and do laundry. I'm breastfeeding and I could go the entire day w/out feeding myself. I always remember to feed my daughter and feed my son, but I never eat. My hubby has to yell at me to eat dinner. I have no clue how he is still gaining weight, how I'm producing enough milk, his iron is great (was just at his check up today). I don't know why this is and even though he is doing good, I still fear that I am depriving him of what he needs and deserves! I've never been a breakfast eater and for as long as I can remember I have only eaten dinner and grazed through out the day, which I do when we have snacky foods.
I'm sure these poor eating habits play a huge roll in this next issue!!! Which goes back to the cleaning. I WANT to clean, do dishes, do laundry (crazy enough, I LOVE doing laundry!) and cook meals (not just dinner and quick foods for lunch & breakfast). I have a hard time falling asleep at night not because of my son, he sleeps 9-12hrs a night!, but because I lay there and I want to get up and do all of this stuff (but for some reason I don't want to and don't during the day!), however, I don't want to wake the children or hubby. So, I just lay there and lay out my day in my head of when I'm doing what and in what order, etc. But..... you guessed it!!! I don't do any of it!!! I sit on the stupid couch or nap w/baby all day until it is time to get my daughter from the bus stop!!!
I WANT && NEED to do all of these things! My hubby doesn't do anything. I was working out when my son was about 2months old, I feel like I felt better then and did more.
Any ideas of how I can get my butt in gear?! I plan to start working out again on Monday, but I've been saying that for about a month or longer now. I do have A.S. & Fybromyalgia, but when I'm working I have NO problem doing these house hold "chores". It drives me crazy that my house is not spot less!!! Am I lacking a vitamin? Please don't tell me it's post partum depression or something like that. Shouldn't it be the opposite?
I apologize for this being sooo long!
Thank you all in advanced!!!