Erin - posted on 02/06/2011 ( 36 moms have responded )
So how it goes is...
Several months back we realized that in our current financial situation we could not just live off my husbands income. So we decided that I would work a weekend/night pt job so we can catch up on bills, pay down the cc debt and get our mortgage more manageable. And that when that was taken care of I would go back to soley being a SAHM. Well, it's been six months and bills are caught up, the cc's paid off and we were able to consolidate and our mortgage is manageable. I know it sounds great, but we're still just breaking even or coming up short every pay period and I haven't even quit my pub job yet. I mentioned to my husband that we need to bring in more money, and since I thought I did my part that he would step up and maybe finally go to the rigs to where the money's at. Yeah, I don't think it's going to happen. He's not to keen on working outdoors in the winter time and really likes the job he's been in for the last 5 years. Child care is not an option since there's none out where we live and would have to go into town for it and then my son would have to change schools and he's only 1/2 through kindergarten. So working a day job isn't going to happen for me.
So it leaves a few options...Either he sucks it up, goes and doubles his income, works hard, has room for advancement, works in the cold or heat in -40 or 40 degree weather, works long hours. or. I go find a night bartending job, work from 8-4am weds through sat, get up at 730 every morning, not put my children to bed 4 nights of the week, I'm tired enough doing everything around the house without weekend family time. I just feel like we had an agreement, and since he's afraid of change I'm the one who has to bend and suck it up. I've been crying all day because I know this is how it's going to have to be.
I know I'll resent him, and I'm even considering a divorce since not only is he not providing for us, but he doesn't even have the motivation to do it. I'll never really see him anyways if I'm working nights.And if we have to sell our home, I'll never forgive him. It'll tear us apart. I'm so angry at him for backing out on us like this. I'd rather work my ass off at home rather than at a FT job, but I'm the one with the education and he's not. But if we get a divorce than I have no problem working since that's my only option then.
Just needed to vent and stop crying in my room. Thanks for listening.