Elena - posted on 05/12/2012 ( 19 moms have responded )
Hi I live in away from my family and don't have any friends. I am a SAHM and have been for the past seven years. My marriage of 15 years has been tough; I have been emotionally abused and bullied by my husband who resents me for not having an income. His family have never liked me and done all they can to cause trouble. Another huge problem that caused a rift between us is the fact that he complains about me to his friends and family. I can understand him wanting an outlet for his problems, but those people judge me and resent me. As a result almost everybody has been alienated because of his complaints, and he does exaggerate and tells them even what he thinks I am thinking. As a result I find it very hard to become intimate with him. He swears me in front of the children, humiliates me in public (I avoid my neighbours out of embarrassment), mocks me when I attend church saying I am too evil to go, and my self-esteem has been completely destroyed.
The latest is that he is going telling people I refuse to have sex with him, which is true because I am so hurt by his gossiping. I feel like the whole world has been turned against me and I'm so alone, even my close family . He has threatened me so much I can't sleep and am weak and shaky all the time. I am far from perfect and have undoubtedly hurt him over the years, but I do not discuss him when he is not present to defend himself. I am afraid for tomorrow because me and the kids will be on the street. I don't know how to cope.
If anybody has advice I would appreciate it.