Missy - posted on 01/23/2010 ( 12 moms have responded )
I was looking foward to returning to work once my kids started school but it was harder than I remembered. I had been a SAHM for 12 yrs and I was so scared! I couldn't believe how much I had lost my confidence. I tried a couple different jobs that worked well with my kid's schedule but it was difficult trying to get myself and three kids out the door in the morning so I decided I would just be a SAHM forever. That way I could get all my cleaning, laundry, and errands done while the kids were in school and then once they got home I could focus on them. The only problem is once I decided that was my life's path and tried it for a few months I started really getting down that this was all I had to look foward to everyday-more laundry, more cleaning, more grocery shopping, etc. I missed having something that was all my own-something that I was striving for myself besides just a clean house. Also I was tired of trying so hard to make ends meet. Sure we could get by but I was tired of just "getting by". So I did go back with a new attitude and found I loved using my brain for something more challenging than I was used to and it felt great to get paid. However, I don't want to go back full-time right now and I'm still somewhat confused to what type of work I really want to do the rest of my life. I was talking to several of my SAHM friends and they had the exact same fears-worrying they were making the right decision, feeling like they weren't sure they could do it anymore after being out of the work force for so long, knowing they wanted more but not sure what it was. Does anyone else struggle with this?