Angi - posted on 08/29/2010 ( 74 moms have responded )
I feel like I am about loosing it....
I have a wonderful husband, no he doesn't help out around the house or with the kids as much as I would like, but he is a good man. He cares about me and the kids and I will never have to worry about him hitting me or the kids, or running around. I have two beautiful kids, but there is a hundred things that they do that drive me nuts! And I mean NUTS. My 7 month old cries ALL the time. He had stopped for a while, now he is doing it again. My 4 year old, whines and cries over everything! She never stops talking or touching me. She never picks up after herself and I have to tell her over and over to. I can punish her and she will half listen then but she still cries and whines. For the most part though she is a good kid. I have no car note, we have a nice house.....
With all that said.... I hate my life, I hate my husband, I hate my kids. I am so sick of everything! I don't know how to deal with anything anymore... I just yell at the kids when my husbands not home b/c if I do it when he is home he gets mad at me. And he should, I am a horrible mom. Everyone thinks I have it all together b/c I can just put on the smiles for play group and story time or book club, bible study... I can have the home made cookies made every week for my husbands job. Or the house clean every time some one comes over. Inside I am just yelling for everyone to leave me alone.. I Just want my kids to sit down and shut up for an hour.
I just don't know what to do anymore. I will never hurt my babies, but I still hate them. Not all the time but most of the time. I dont' want people to know how badly I hurt or how I feel, but I couldn't keep it in any longer.
What kind of advice do you give to a person like me... I don't know anymore.