Cristina - posted on 11/06/2010 ( 28 moms have responded )
I am a SAHM with an extremely active 2 1/2 year old, I my self suffer from anger issues, for no reason sometimes, and it's so hard to keep calm most days, I am taking some natural remedies to calm down, but sometimes like any person forget to take and do the exercises I was told to do to relax. Now, this is my thing, my son is at an age where he wont listen for nothing, he is becoming more and more disobedient, and is starting to throw things, I had a friend who spanked her children for the lightest things, and I told my self that I would never ever hit my kids and if I did it would be a tap on the hand to get their attention, I broke my promise to myself and have spanked my child, my only child, and feel so awful about it, I'm shaking right now, he just wouldn't listen and threw nail polish when I wasn't looking and the bottle shattered and well it was all over the walls the floor, all over, I got so mad and spanked his bottom and grabbed him by the arm and told him, ( with an angry face that must have scared him, I'm sure) and asked him why is he doing these things, I know he is two but I also think that he know what he's doing. I have no parenting support from my husband and do it all myself, with no time to myself, we live right now at my parents home and I know that is not helping my situation.
Am I a horrible person, should I go and take the other medicines that will sedate me and make me a mild mom, instead of the natural medicines I started to take? I'm really in a bad place right now and don't know how to get out of it.