Kayla - posted on 11/04/2010 ( 58 moms have responded )
I cant deal with motherhood with no help anymore.
Its been 61/2 months and i havent gotten a full night sleep, not even 1/2 hour to myself. My baby needs me to sleep, eat, and play. I have to figure out a way to clean, shower, eat. and nobody is around enough to help me. My boyfriend is always working so he doesn't help. My baby is a spoiled mamas boy and i cant take it anymore. I know this sounds bad but i don't wanna do it anymore. I love my baby to death but i cant take it. I'm getting to the point where im abusing myself and my boyfriend and im afraid its gonna get worse. I know id NEVER even think about hittin my baby but still. I feel so bad for feeling like this but what does everyone expect me to do? I'm only 19 and im only human. My life is ruined and noone cares. I love being a mother but is it really to much to ask for a few hours to myself? when i ask my boyfriend if i can have this he says, do i get a few hours to myself? I understand he needs it to but he has it far more than i do. (he drives an hour back and forth to work.) thats more than i get. I'm so tired and im so exhausted. someone please help and give me some suggestions or tell me you feel the same way??