Magpie - posted on 01/14/2012 ( 64 moms have responded )
I'm a stay at home mom to a 4 yr old and a 2 yr old. I chose to stay at home because I feel kids do better when they spend that extra time with mom rather than at a daycare (just my opinion).
Ever since I became a mom I've been struggling with identity issues and have had trouble settling into this new role. Since my 2nd came along, this has gotten worse.
I've suffered from depression in the past and now it's ongoing (can't afford therapy).
My kids constantly complain about what we feed them and how we do things for them. They're constantly demanding and want things RIGHT NOW.
Hubby works 10-12 hr days so he sees a fraction of what I deal with on a regular basis. I'm finding it very hard to not resent him.
I try my hardest to have that "me" time but with hubby working long hours it doesn't always happen so I try to grab it in small amounts (and the kids usually don't let me). By the time they're in bed, I just want to go to bed myself.
I find it's hard to feel happy for what I have when all I seem to feel is depressed and unappreciated.
Thanks for letting me vent (I don't have anyone really to talk to about this stuff....)