Samantha - posted on 01/09/2013 ( 22 moms have responded )
I began staying at home with my son 6 months ago after we lost the only sitter we could afford. I really enjoyed being able to get things done during the day and have special time with my son at first. I don't know if it's because it's winter now and activities are more limited or what, but I don't feel like I know where I want to be anymore- home or work. The biggest issue is the area we are in is so small, it's very difficult to find a job that pays enough to make a difference. Before I left my previous job, I calculated just after gas & CHEAP daycare I was only bringing home roughly $50. Money is tight at our house, but we're making it work. I feel so lonely because I don't have many friends or extra money to go a lot of places. Sometimes I think finding a part time job would help with this, but then I'm back in the same boat. And I do like being home with my son...I guess I just feel stuck at the moment. Knowing that my husband and most of my family feel I should be working right now doesn't help my esteem much either. Sorry for the lengthy post, just needed to get it out and I hope there's someone feeling the same way that can help.