Denise - posted on 10/18/2011 ( 20 moms have responded )
I know that millions of women are going through this right now! I have two sons from a seperate relationship, and three children with my current marriage. I have a husband who is verbally abusive and it seems that the longer I'm in this marriage the worst it has become. From the start all I have been called is a fat b*tch, a nasty wh*re, and like an idiot I have stood around to deal with it; all for the sake of my children. However after seeing the way things are going this evening with my 13 year old son and my husband I have decided that it is enough. I had a moment to myself and realized that this is my childrens time; their time to grow with those who really love them and support them. They cannot do that here! They have to ask permission to eat, permission to play games, permission to do anything. They get yelled at if they go to grab something out of the fridge and get told that when they want something to eat or drink to ask me, that I'll do it for them. "Yes" I don't have a problem taking care of my children but these are grown boys who can cook up their own food. This be-littles them and makes them feel worthless and useless. It's the same way I feel! I also have to ask permission for everything. To make things worst if there's a partial mess like sneakers thrown around in the living room and some book bags all hell breaks loose. I'm the pig who never does anything so he says and I can never explain without raising my voice or losing my temper without trying to make clear that the living room was nice and clean prior to them gettting home from school, but yet I'm a pig. If I make an honest mistake with my cooking he'll tell me how nasty it is and throws it in the trash then tells me he'll go out for a bite to eat! It's the slap in the face, back then when I was on the heavy side he would constantly tell me how nasty I was and that no one wanted me. Still till this blessed day he says that if I leave him no one will ever want me not with all these f*cking kids as he calls them. After going through this ordeal for 8 years the only man I will allow in my life is Jesus Christ. I'm traumatized by his verbal abuse and so are my children and just like these many brave women who have taken the first step to leave I just made the decision to do so too. My kids deserve happiness and I deserve peace of mind!