Jenny - posted on 01/20/2011 ( 81 moms have responded )
Im a mother of two, eldest is 26m and youngest is 8months, they are 18months apart. I keep battling with whether or not to leave it at 2 kids. I love kids, and they can be so adorable, but I absolutely hate the 9 long months of feeling ill during pregnancy and the recovery from childbirth is certainly what puts me off. And then to go through those first few months of sleepless nights and then when teething comes its such a hard time on everyone.
I would love to leave all that, all the nappy changing and spoon feeding etc, leave it all behind. But when you’re in a circle of friends that all have 3 or more kids I always feel like they are jealous of me and think I have it easy coz I’ve only got two. I don’t want people to feel that way about me. Also I don’t want to feel like im missing out on more kids and most of all I don’t want to feel selfish about only having two.
I want to be at peace with me and my husbands decisions to only have two, but its so hard to get there. Does any one have any advice on how to have peace in this area?
I’m also afraid of getting into my late thirties and regretting not having a 3rd (& 4th) kid now while they are young so that they grow up together. I know for sure that I don’t want my kids to be more than 2 years apart, and I do sort of want more, but I just cant allow myself to go through it all again, it turns my stomach over. But I want more, if only it weren’t so hard!