Amber - posted on 07/09/2009 ( 10 moms have responded )
I see now that I wasn't ready. I think I let this pregnancy happen because I felt left out. Now I feel like we put our whole little unit in danger. I love the boys (my step-sons) very much. They're 6 & 7, so I don't have the "you're not my mom" drama. I feel like they're mine. I just didn't give birth to them.
So now I'm a bit freaked out. I'm doing this thing where when people ask about the baby I have to bring up the boys. I don't want to be a sucky bio-mom because I'm scared to miss something with the boys. I don't want to turn into a sucky step-mom because I'm wrapped up in the tiny baby.