living without my baby girl

Dee - posted on 12/14/2011 ( 1 mom has responded )

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I lost my baby girl Kamille on Nov 22nd .
I woke up that am did my regular routine
( I have four small boys) off to school. I did not feel her move that am so after eating breakfast I decided to call doc. I went to hospital thinking she was just sleeping, I was told there was no heartbeat. I was broken. I was only 30 weeks. They delivered her via csection, the nurse wrapped her in blankets and explained that some of her flesh had came off, she stated it was normal.
I was stunned , It felt like i was in a movie, I could not believe she was gone. I felt her kicking, moving the night before.
Looking back, I had experienced contractions early on in pregnancy, docs advised to wear a adominal belt to support. I asked doctor on nov 11 I should be worried about her not moving for periods of time> and could we plan an induction he said sure at 38 week> 2weeks prior to that at 24weeks, I went in to perinatology for contractions, baby was not moving alot, but she managed to kick once while on screen after i had drank a bottle of water and she had a heartbeat. The docs said everything was ok.After hearing she was okay, I was given a beautiful baby shower. I had an autopsy done on her, prelims came back with cause of death: undetermined. Docs said full report in a few weeks. but they think it was a cord accident, as the cord was thin and long(they mentioned cord compression).
I am at a lost for words. I wanted this child with all of my heart and i wanted a baby girl all of my life. She was beautiful and looked exactly as I picutured in my dream. I pray daily and try to cope with our loss. I want to try again very quickly to get prego as I am already 39. Has anyone had a stillborn and had another baby that was same gender in the next pregnancy?

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Melinda - posted on 12/23/2011

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I am sorry for your loss. It is not easy. My first was still born, Chad, was a boy. I went on to have two beautiful girls. Pregnancies were hard on me. Then we had a surprise pregnancy. It was a boy. We were so excited. His was a hard pregnancy as well. He was delivered early (Just two weeks early) he was having the same problems that caused us to lose Chad. I am so glad that they acted quickly! We would have lost him too. Good luck on another pregnancy. I pray all goes well.