Amber - posted on 08/11/2012 ( 3 moms have responded )
Today I realized that I feel like I should be 40 instead of 20. When I was 16 I took care of my baby sister, my little brother, and the responsibilities of the house while my mom worked, partied, and dated. I lost my dad when I was 10 and I lost my stepdad when I was 17. Once my stepdad passed away my mom was never home. She worked, she went to las vegas and partied. She would even travel as far as New York to date men (We are from southern Pennsylvania) I didn't actually start to enjoy my youth until I moved in with my boyfriend at 18. And even then I couldnt live my life to the fullest because I was held down with an antisocial boyfriend. (I was hoping to date around but he was my way out and I did eventually fall in love) While living with him my birth control failed after taking a muscle relaxer and I had a baby when I was 19. I've been with my boyfriend (now Husband) for 3 years. I love my husband and my little girl and wouldn't give them up for anything. But because of everything I've been through and being a mom now I feel so worn down. I watch my little sister (now 4) and take care of my baby girl (7 months) all day until I leave for work. I work between 4 and 8 hours every single day. I rarely have a day off. And my husband goes to school 2 hours away so he's almost never home. Im always so tired and stressed.I feel like a single mother Worrying so much about money and everything. I haven't gotten to act my age in such a long time. I'm not quite sure what's been going through my head but I really miss feeling young and being single. I need a break and my husband thinks a mom should never have a break. So the very few times I do go out with friends it causes issues between him and I and then we argue. And that just stresses me more. I can't seem to win here. When will life get easier?