Kaylihia - posted on 04/11/2012 ( 69 moms have responded )
Well, I had an abortion in February. I was 17 weeks and 6 days... I'm 14 years old. I look younger than I am. My dr. said it was unsafe to get pregnant at my size and age. I was 69 lbs at the start of my first pregnancy now I'm 76 lbs. I'm like 4 weeks pregnant. I just started puberty a year ago. I got my period last september. I am I guess less developed than the average girl my age. I wanted my last pregnancy but things happened where I couldn;t have it. This time it's only been 2 months I am really depressed to have another abortion. I feel too broken though to have a child... I left home... I live with these guys now I guess. I have had a lot of bad things happen since even worst than at home. My dad lost his job and they live with my aunt whoI had an argument with who asked me to leave. So I have been a lot of places finally settled with this group of guys. They wouldn't let me stay pregnant I know that. I know that I shouldn't want a baby at this time. I have a cutting issue no money I do drugs and I have no safe place or family to go to. I don't know who the dad is But I love the baby. I'm so desperate I've considered adoption but I think I don't know my situation would leave me more vulnerable plus I don't know if I can ctt. I'm kind of scared being in this state. I don't know what to do really... I gained weight since last month maybe my body will prepare properly? I just really don't have anything to make it work I'm cry every time I think of the pregnancy and knowing I'm going to probably end this too.