Emily - posted on 08/15/2012 ( 3 moms have responded )
Alright, so I'm 17 and I had my little bundle of bouncing baby boy in January. He was 3 months early. I ended up dropping my second semester of my Junior year and luckily I've done so well in school up until now that I only need 5 classes to graduate this year, that's including the classes I missed. Anyway, school starts on Friday and I'm not excited about being away from my little man for 5 hours...It tears me apart on the inside, thinking about how much I'll miss in this time of so much learning and thinking about how active he usually is in the mornings makes me so incredibly sad that I'm almost convincing myself not to go to school. I want to be the one that watches him learn to play with his toys and sit up on his own and feed him with a spoon. Not my sister in law, that I don't particularly like. She crosses the thin line between babysitter and wanna be mom. I personally didn't want a family member babysitting him in the first place for this reason, sure I'm a tad bit jealous but he's my baby. I don't want someone else raising him. I can't take him to a daycare because he was so preemie the chances for him getting sick are a lot higher. I guess you could say I'm a confused, jealous, nervous wreck. I just want to be the one to take care of him and I don't want to be away from him but I know that I need to finish high school. Does anyone have any advice?