S. - posted on 08/08/2011 ( 26 moms have responded )
I was abused from the age of 4-5 and then again when I was 10 years old. I had two abusers, a male and his teen daugher. I now have a 2 year old daughter who is my main priority in life, but I cannot even begin to explain how terrified and paranoid I am thinking that someone is going to abuse her the same way I was as a kid. It has ridiculously gotten to the point where I can't even let my husband (her own dad) bathe her, rock her to sleep, hug her because I begin to think what if?? And I start to question him. This is with everyone even my own sisters! I do not trust anyone in my mind I am always thinking what if?? I don't know what to do or why I am like this? I honestly love my daughter to death but I know this is not a healthy way to live.