Wendy - posted on 05/15/2012 ( 9 moms have responded )
Hi Everyone --im new here, feel free to comment anything you like because believe everyone is entitled to their opinions and hence why I'm posting
The other day i took my 3 year old daughter to swim class
After the class there was a mad rush for the showers
one 1/2 of the showers were taken and the other 1/2 was not
So I prop my daughter in the showers on the free side, told her to stay in that mom voice and went to get her soap / shampoo and towel (I'm stupid for not doing so ahead of time)
What happens during this time is:
She ends up freezing to death, (this was our first time at this pool) because the 1/2 that was empty --had only icy cold water, while the 1/2 that was full had warm water!
My daughter was so scared of me --thats what I assume was what kept her in the shower,
she was shivering when i came back and freezing to death, i almost cried right then and there...
When she tried to basically inch into the warm water side, and the mom with her daughter using that side basically told my daughter to go away or go stand in line
Anyways, i feel so guilty and sad, because I'm stupid my daughter suffers, worst part is, she didn't even cry about it, just shivering
-_-!!!! i get the whole --yes i have learned from this experience, it won't happen again next time etc etc...but how many times does my daughter have to go through something awful because her mother is stupid...
It doesn't end here!
That same day, i went to get a lock for the locker from the front desk, i left her by the pool in the "kiddie play area" they had (to the side of the pool) where there were other kids and about 40 parents
When i came back she was LITERALLY arms length for the 3meter pool side, trying to reach for a toy that was on the pools ledge.
She could have drowned and died ... because i was worried that our stuff would be stolen and went to get a lock and didn't want to take her with me because i was afraid she would get cold.
I am stupid...and i am so afraid...
what should i do? obviously not about these two incidents in particular but what if others things...am i not good for my daughter?
ps. i have no history of mental illness, i have a happy loving husband, my child is very smart, articulate and wonderful and my life is near perfect
so...it must be me, what should i do,