Robyn - posted on 01/02/2012 ( 39 moms have responded )
Hello Everyone, I'm new here and I have a question.
I have a little girl who is almost 15 months old. I have been home with her since her birth until now. Unfortunately I have to start working again for financial reasons. My parents retired this year and have offered to take care of my baby whenever I get a job. They have babysat her and we are with them often. My baby always has fun with them. I always had bad anxiety about anyone watching her but me or her dad. but more recently i have been slightly more ok with it, but only with my parents. Also, I plan to work part time for now, not full time. In my head I know I have an almost ideal situation- grandparents watching her and only working part time. I have read many other posts from moms who are away ten hours at a time and with strangers watching their babies. I just can't shake the severe anxiety. I feel like she might need me and I won't be there and also that she will hate me or not know how much I love her and want to be with her. My question is, has anyone else gone through this? I feel like no one I know understands what I'm feeling. I feel like people think I'm crazy. Am I?