Deniece - posted on 10/12/2012 ( 6 moms have responded )
I had a baby in 2008. My first. First off, it took medication to the i.v. for me to be able to deal with contractions. But i remember saying no epidural...as time progressed, the doctor in formed me he had to break my water to speed things up but would give me a higher dose of medication so i wouldnt feel pain. Well this sounded pretty good at the time so thats what happened. As i dialated slowly i recall the doctor asking me if i wanted epidural. I remember saying no, because i had heard so many stories i was terrified of it. Then as the drugs set in i remember less and less and time seemrd to fly. I remember him coming back in and saying it was my last chance for an epidural. He said once he couldnt give me one, i would wish he did because it would be very painful and i was barely dealing with contractions. At that point i wss so scared, i said ok. It all moved so quickly and i was so heavily medicated that nurses had to lift me up and hold me in place to get it. I barely felt the injection (a small pinch) and that was it. When it was time to deliver, there was a completely different doctor. (Unless they switched before that im not entirely sure when that happened.) I remember this doctor saying it was time. He had the nurses lift my legs and told me i should hold them and push only when he said for count to 6 etc. But only i could not hold my legs. They were entirely too heavy. My child's dad had to do it. The doctor said something to the nurse who went to check the machine giving off the medicine. She whispered to a nurse "this is way too high who turned it up". Some pushes later my daughter was born. She was beautiful with theses dark marks all over her legs, back, face, and arms. I then remember the same nurse whisper again "she had too much". I asked what she meant but it was brushed off. After that i had no use of my legs for near 24 hours and since i get shooting pains up and down my spine, horrible back pains, splitting migraines, and tingling in my legs and sometimes a twitching like kicking in my stomach. Its four years later and the hospitak that i had my baby at shut down maternity operations. What can i do four years later and who can i talk to.? Is this normal?